Wednesday, September 29, 2004
i figured something out about myself today. apparently i talk to myself. of course, maybe this isn't something i should be telling YOU.
i love it how i have so much homework! civ test and french project and com project and music appreciation test and civ paper -- all due within the next week 'n a half! however, i will get the reward of going home! maybe i wont have tons of homework then!!
i think this means i will have to be productive this weekend. if you see me online, tell me to get off. well, not until you've conversated with me ;-)
its somewhat depressing to stay up late and see the names on your buddy list fade to gray, indicating that all of your friends are in bed and you are not. then to distract yourself from homework and going to bed like your other friends, you can read from their infos that indeed, they are all sleeping.
sometimes with AIM i feel a bit like a stalker. however, i wont voluntarily go back to AOL.
i have gotten so sick of wearing my glasses every day (because of allergies). so i decided last night i would do away with them today, and go for the contacts. it figures; five minutes after i wake up this morning i sneeze a humungous sneeze. in spite of myself, i wore my contacts anyway.
i'm sure you were all DYING to know that.
i thought i had escaped the television behind my head sucking thoughts from my head, but i haven't. a perilous cubs game is currently on. quite loud. perhaps because i turned my music on?
i wont say anything else...
ive been craving ska music today. oc supertones has been easing this, with help from FIF. what a wonderful day.
time for an hour of homework ba-fore dinner. *takes deep breath*
i love it how i have so much homework! civ test and french project and com project and music appreciation test and civ paper -- all due within the next week 'n a half! however, i will get the reward of going home! maybe i wont have tons of homework then!!
i think this means i will have to be productive this weekend. if you see me online, tell me to get off. well, not until you've conversated with me ;-)
its somewhat depressing to stay up late and see the names on your buddy list fade to gray, indicating that all of your friends are in bed and you are not. then to distract yourself from homework and going to bed like your other friends, you can read from their infos that indeed, they are all sleeping.
sometimes with AIM i feel a bit like a stalker. however, i wont voluntarily go back to AOL.
i have gotten so sick of wearing my glasses every day (because of allergies). so i decided last night i would do away with them today, and go for the contacts. it figures; five minutes after i wake up this morning i sneeze a humungous sneeze. in spite of myself, i wore my contacts anyway.
i'm sure you were all DYING to know that.
i thought i had escaped the television behind my head sucking thoughts from my head, but i haven't. a perilous cubs game is currently on. quite loud. perhaps because i turned my music on?
i wont say anything else...
ive been craving ska music today. oc supertones has been easing this, with help from FIF. what a wonderful day.
time for an hour of homework ba-fore dinner. *takes deep breath*
Saturday, September 25, 2004
i'm feeling a bit annoyed right now. not because of this...
last night i woke up at 4:40 to the sounds of guitar coming from outside my window. It was awful sounding, and so loud, so i got up to see what the heck was going on. There was a guy sitting out there on a bench, strumming away on his guitar, singing "Screaming Infedelities." and he wasn't even that good. then i go back to bed, and he launches into another song, and by the time i go back to the window there are two people sitting on the ground listening to him play. I go back three minutes later and there are more people sitting around him listening to him play. I closed the window.
i'm assuming they were all drunk, because i'm thinking no college student would soberly do that. but it was so stupid and unreal that i can't help thinking it was a dream. and look at the time! 4:40...thats really late or really early, an incomprehensable time.
strange times
last night i woke up at 4:40 to the sounds of guitar coming from outside my window. It was awful sounding, and so loud, so i got up to see what the heck was going on. There was a guy sitting out there on a bench, strumming away on his guitar, singing "Screaming Infedelities." and he wasn't even that good. then i go back to bed, and he launches into another song, and by the time i go back to the window there are two people sitting on the ground listening to him play. I go back three minutes later and there are more people sitting around him listening to him play. I closed the window.
i'm assuming they were all drunk, because i'm thinking no college student would soberly do that. but it was so stupid and unreal that i can't help thinking it was a dream. and look at the time! 4:40...thats really late or really early, an incomprehensable time.
strange times
Friday, September 24, 2004
ok...i've been getting a bit of a preview of Relient K's new album. Wonderful thing i wore my Relient K shirt today. I never go a day wearing it without getting complements. But thats not the point. go to www.mmhmm.com and be amazed. check out the relient k website too, off to the right here.
the song on mmhmm.com is "Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"
i think its really amazing how much i love relient k. they say exactly what i feel.
the song on mmhmm.com is "Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"
i think its really amazing how much i love relient k. they say exactly what i feel.
alex was wondering...what exactly is whackspoetic?
so, now is due time, i believe.
"Whackspoetic" is derived from the term "wax poetic," which, according to an idiom website, is "become poetic, begin to recite poems."
Also, "Wax is also an intransitive verb. In one sense it means to increase, as in the moon waxes full this evening, and in another sense to pass into a mood or state. In the latter sense we can understand the phrase wax poetic (or eloquent, lyrical, philosophical or sarcastic) and this raises doubt about its status as an idiom, i.e., it can be taken literally"
i was thinking about naming my blog "wax poetic" but someone already took the that name, and they have only published ONCE. in a way, I'm glad, because i like the uniqueness of "whackspoetic"...isn't it wonderful how things always work out?!?!
Anyways, i was tossing around the idea of "wax poetic" to my sister and she had never heard the name before and she thought i mean "whack." so i thought that was a good idea, and out comes WHACKSPOETIC!!!!
so, now is due time, i believe.
"Whackspoetic" is derived from the term "wax poetic," which, according to an idiom website, is "become poetic, begin to recite poems."
Also, "Wax is also an intransitive verb. In one sense it means to increase, as in the moon waxes full this evening, and in another sense to pass into a mood or state. In the latter sense we can understand the phrase wax poetic (or eloquent, lyrical, philosophical or sarcastic) and this raises doubt about its status as an idiom, i.e., it can be taken literally"
i was thinking about naming my blog "wax poetic" but someone already took the that name, and they have only published ONCE. in a way, I'm glad, because i like the uniqueness of "whackspoetic"...isn't it wonderful how things always work out?!?!
Anyways, i was tossing around the idea of "wax poetic" to my sister and she had never heard the name before and she thought i mean "whack." so i thought that was a good idea, and out comes WHACKSPOETIC!!!!
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
i went to look at my blog, just checking up on it, and i heard a voice that told me to blog. so here i am.
i deserve a ribbon or something for being an official college student. i was up until...haha, i wont tell you. refocusing a paper on sophocles instead of socrates. it was bad...but it wasnt that bad. ok, so it was really bad when i realized my mistake at one a.m.
i had COM 101 test today, which i think i actually did well on, and i got done early! happily talked to ilana, and i did take my nap...much longer than i anticipated, but hey i was up until...haha, gotcha.
then whilst walking to dinner, still half asleep, i realized i have a speech test tomorrow. greeeeat...
realized to an even greater extent today that people are gonna like you more if you are real. its like the less you try, the more people notice. well, in that aspect anyway. yeah.
have been thinking about it, and maybe i dont really want to know who is reading my blog. casey says probably more than i think, and then i think, maybe not a lot. but anyway, i check my own blog all the time and hardly ever leave comments. and it is on the internet, which only about four billion people have access to.
oooowweeeoooweeeooo, i'll leave the shroud of mystery cascading over my blog...
oprah was on whilst i was drifting away into a lovely nap, and i was somewhat disgusted. there was a guy from Sex and the City and he wrote a book about how if your guy doesnt do this, then he is JUST NOT INTO YOU. and all these ladies gave him examples, and wouldncha know it, he told them that the men in their lives were JUST NOT INTO THEM. i got the impression that because men dont have lives of their own, and if they really like us, then they have to devote every single breath to us womens. if not, then he is JUST NOT INTO US, and us, being freewheeling and ambitious female individuals need to stop this, stop wasting our time with men who (oh, jeez, here we go again) ARE JUST NOT INTO US and become single!! and happy!! because we are independent!!! and they are not willing to be dependent!!!
I AM JUST NOT INTO THIS!!! what a load of crap.
its definitely taking things at face value. there is no digging deeper at all.
however, i have noticed about females that we really really REALLY like to pick things apart and give every possible reason and explanation and blame other people and ourselves (but not that often). there is one big analyzation fest, and women usually end up really sad and depressed and...alone.
i've also come to realize that sometimes in certain social situations, i find i dont say the right thing. fifteen minutes later, nine hours later, three days later, i come up with something that i REALLY should have said. but i cant do anything about it. my point here is, if i cant say or do the right thing all the time, why should i expect everyone else to?
And, maybe this being my most important point, NOTHING will be like you think it will be. you can sit and analyze and plan and predict and reason and think of every possibility, then when the time comes, you realize that it was nothing like you expected at all.
(that would be GOD)
alright, time for studying for speech test.
i deserve a ribbon or something for being an official college student. i was up until...haha, i wont tell you. refocusing a paper on sophocles instead of socrates. it was bad...but it wasnt that bad. ok, so it was really bad when i realized my mistake at one a.m.
i had COM 101 test today, which i think i actually did well on, and i got done early! happily talked to ilana, and i did take my nap...much longer than i anticipated, but hey i was up until...haha, gotcha.
then whilst walking to dinner, still half asleep, i realized i have a speech test tomorrow. greeeeat...
realized to an even greater extent today that people are gonna like you more if you are real. its like the less you try, the more people notice. well, in that aspect anyway. yeah.
have been thinking about it, and maybe i dont really want to know who is reading my blog. casey says probably more than i think, and then i think, maybe not a lot. but anyway, i check my own blog all the time and hardly ever leave comments. and it is on the internet, which only about four billion people have access to.
oooowweeeoooweeeooo, i'll leave the shroud of mystery cascading over my blog...
oprah was on whilst i was drifting away into a lovely nap, and i was somewhat disgusted. there was a guy from Sex and the City and he wrote a book about how if your guy doesnt do this, then he is JUST NOT INTO YOU. and all these ladies gave him examples, and wouldncha know it, he told them that the men in their lives were JUST NOT INTO THEM. i got the impression that because men dont have lives of their own, and if they really like us, then they have to devote every single breath to us womens. if not, then he is JUST NOT INTO US, and us, being freewheeling and ambitious female individuals need to stop this, stop wasting our time with men who (oh, jeez, here we go again) ARE JUST NOT INTO US and become single!! and happy!! because we are independent!!! and they are not willing to be dependent!!!
I AM JUST NOT INTO THIS!!! what a load of crap.
its definitely taking things at face value. there is no digging deeper at all.
however, i have noticed about females that we really really REALLY like to pick things apart and give every possible reason and explanation and blame other people and ourselves (but not that often). there is one big analyzation fest, and women usually end up really sad and depressed and...alone.
i've also come to realize that sometimes in certain social situations, i find i dont say the right thing. fifteen minutes later, nine hours later, three days later, i come up with something that i REALLY should have said. but i cant do anything about it. my point here is, if i cant say or do the right thing all the time, why should i expect everyone else to?
And, maybe this being my most important point, NOTHING will be like you think it will be. you can sit and analyze and plan and predict and reason and think of every possibility, then when the time comes, you realize that it was nothing like you expected at all.
(that would be GOD)
alright, time for studying for speech test.
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
Monday, September 20, 2004
i read a great quote awhile ago that its really boring to have nothing to do, but its utterly fantastic when you have tons of stuff to do and you aren't doing it!!!!
I feel fantastic!!
I'm not tired either! and its past one a.m. does it get any better?? and i'm listening to switchfoot! i may just die of disbelief cuz its CRAZY!
i really wonder how many people get this site from my profile. you there, the one sitting at the computer, tell me RIGHT NOW that you're here!
then you can tell me what a bad college student i am and how freaking crazy i am!!
and for all my longtime readers...lots of love.
i'm listening to Chem 6A...now i feel like a person who doesn't try. its just so hard. i need to take advantage of the library. and my empty bed.
I feel fantastic!!
I'm not tired either! and its past one a.m. does it get any better?? and i'm listening to switchfoot! i may just die of disbelief cuz its CRAZY!
i really wonder how many people get this site from my profile. you there, the one sitting at the computer, tell me RIGHT NOW that you're here!
then you can tell me what a bad college student i am and how freaking crazy i am!!
and for all my longtime readers...lots of love.
i'm listening to Chem 6A...now i feel like a person who doesn't try. its just so hard. i need to take advantage of the library. and my empty bed.
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
well, here is post number 114...one that i said should be a special special post. funny thing that today is september 14th, and thats my little sister's birthday! so i guess today is a special day! she's got one more year until she turns freaking 13, so, thats just weird. it makes me feel old. and i heard that from older people when i was a kid, and here i am saying it, which makes me feel even older...
GAH i want a bath! so i can sit and shave my legs!! i hate doing it in the showers!
anyway...
its so freaking hot here. seriously, the last time it was this hot was three weeks ago. thats the summertime, dears! bah! this is what i get for moving south...
worship@fullvolume was the best night yet. dcb "O Praise Him"...most amazing... its hard to do dcb songs if you're not david crowder himself...but it was sooo good, and they did it twice! and "here i am to worship," which despite being popular, is still really really good.
bah, now for more sweating and homework. double yuck
GAH i want a bath! so i can sit and shave my legs!! i hate doing it in the showers!
anyway...
its so freaking hot here. seriously, the last time it was this hot was three weeks ago. thats the summertime, dears! bah! this is what i get for moving south...
worship@fullvolume was the best night yet. dcb "O Praise Him"...most amazing... its hard to do dcb songs if you're not david crowder himself...but it was sooo good, and they did it twice! and "here i am to worship," which despite being popular, is still really really good.
bah, now for more sweating and homework. double yuck
Saturday, September 11, 2004
ok, so normally i am not immensely patriotic, but i just realized what day it was when i clicked to make a new post. and i probably wouldn't be typing this if there was no United States. free speech!
i could go on and on about how much homework i had this week, but even I am tired of hearing myself complain about it.
the last two days have been...interesting. it's been a double sided coin, but i'm moving on past the "meeting people" phase.
i went to a 70s party last night for Cru...felt kind of bad because there weren't tons of people, but when the modeling of 70's attire started, i would have not liked to be anywhere else. cru people are cool people!
hurrah! am expecting Sanctus Real CD in the mail soon. "say it loud..."
UGH FLONASE
here it is, almost 10:30, and i believe i may be one of three people awake on my floor. oh well, i'll go to the gym now. it's been awhile...
one last thing: does anyone know what the heck the search entry field is for at the top of the page? i've typed words in and i get no results.
i could go on and on about how much homework i had this week, but even I am tired of hearing myself complain about it.
the last two days have been...interesting. it's been a double sided coin, but i'm moving on past the "meeting people" phase.
i went to a 70s party last night for Cru...felt kind of bad because there weren't tons of people, but when the modeling of 70's attire started, i would have not liked to be anywhere else. cru people are cool people!
hurrah! am expecting Sanctus Real CD in the mail soon. "say it loud..."
UGH FLONASE
here it is, almost 10:30, and i believe i may be one of three people awake on my floor. oh well, i'll go to the gym now. it's been awhile...
one last thing: does anyone know what the heck the search entry field is for at the top of the page? i've typed words in and i get no results.
Sunday, September 05, 2004
oh dear i feel awful. that's the last time i use my saved "brb" away message when i have to leave really quick and i dont have the spontaneous combustion in my head to form a more creative one and then not come back for five hours. sorry to all those who...well, it's not like i'm the only person in the world.
ohmigosh its soooooooooo hot. and my toolbar says its only 71 degrees.
aha! maybe it is the heat generated from my vivicarious saturday night life!
ahem, if that were so, it would be about 30 degrees cooler. minus the humidity.
HA! finally got the almighty Gondola sandwich tonight from Avanti's. it was absolutely heavenly.
i got more pictures in the mail today. hurrah! i just...just...love getting pictures! to hang on my wall! i could up it to "wallpaper" level by the end of the year!
AND i got M&M's in the mail! how cool is that?!
i realized tonight that feelings of lonliness are felt by everyone. which, then, are they really feelings of lonliness? i mean, hey, part of the feeling of lonliness is the feeling that you are, well, alone, with no one to relate to. however, if everyone is lonely, then BAM you've got common ground. however, i really have yet to meet anyone who starts off a conversation with, "so, are you lonely?" ok, maybe when you sulk to those you know, but not to anyone you've never met before. and that's what people have to do right now, is meet new people.
ok, now i'm confusing myself, so i'm just going to shut up.
but, speaking of new and confusing, i have never met so many "becky's" and "becca's" in my whole freakin life. i know more rebecca-spectrum names here than i knew katie's at home, which is really saying a lot.
readers at home are now saying, "uh...i think it's time for her to go to bed so she can go to church in the morning..."
and i so totally agree. however, not before i say that confessionsofateenagedramaqueen wasn't half-bad of a movie, albeit corny, and high fedelity is quite good, even after seeing it 2, or rather 1.5 times. which leads me to the point that i hate falling asleep while watching movies.
goodnite!!!!!!!!!
ohmigosh its soooooooooo hot. and my toolbar says its only 71 degrees.
aha! maybe it is the heat generated from my vivicarious saturday night life!
ahem, if that were so, it would be about 30 degrees cooler. minus the humidity.
HA! finally got the almighty Gondola sandwich tonight from Avanti's. it was absolutely heavenly.
i got more pictures in the mail today. hurrah! i just...just...love getting pictures! to hang on my wall! i could up it to "wallpaper" level by the end of the year!
AND i got M&M's in the mail! how cool is that?!
i realized tonight that feelings of lonliness are felt by everyone. which, then, are they really feelings of lonliness? i mean, hey, part of the feeling of lonliness is the feeling that you are, well, alone, with no one to relate to. however, if everyone is lonely, then BAM you've got common ground. however, i really have yet to meet anyone who starts off a conversation with, "so, are you lonely?" ok, maybe when you sulk to those you know, but not to anyone you've never met before. and that's what people have to do right now, is meet new people.
ok, now i'm confusing myself, so i'm just going to shut up.
but, speaking of new and confusing, i have never met so many "becky's" and "becca's" in my whole freakin life. i know more rebecca-spectrum names here than i knew katie's at home, which is really saying a lot.
readers at home are now saying, "uh...i think it's time for her to go to bed so she can go to church in the morning..."
and i so totally agree. however, not before i say that confessionsofateenagedramaqueen wasn't half-bad of a movie, albeit corny, and high fedelity is quite good, even after seeing it 2, or rather 1.5 times. which leads me to the point that i hate falling asleep while watching movies.
goodnite!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, September 02, 2004
now, this has got to be one of the most desirable places for a college student: one class tomorrow, no homework for class tomorrow.
maybe it doesn't seem like it to you, but it is to me.
so, here i am just sitting here. i could read my speech textbook, or write a paper, or...ok, now i'm getting depressed. what a horrible feeling...good feeling gone.
because i am in two communications classes, i am learning essentially the same things. the same terms, the same concepts. its a bit confusing. however, the main purpose of each class is COMMUNICATION IS VERY VERY IMPORTANT. not just for COM majors, my dears, but for every single day of your life.
how ironic that i have both of these classes when i am realizing the importance of it all.
anyways...
maybe it doesn't seem like it to you, but it is to me.
so, here i am just sitting here. i could read my speech textbook, or write a paper, or...ok, now i'm getting depressed. what a horrible feeling...good feeling gone.
because i am in two communications classes, i am learning essentially the same things. the same terms, the same concepts. its a bit confusing. however, the main purpose of each class is COMMUNICATION IS VERY VERY IMPORTANT. not just for COM majors, my dears, but for every single day of your life.
how ironic that i have both of these classes when i am realizing the importance of it all.
anyways...
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
WARNING
you actually DO have to study in college. even if the teacher gives you questions and objectives then you find them in your text and take notes, you will STILL fail unless you review and review and quiz and review some more.
hurrah! i reviewed and reviewed and quizzed and reviewed!
needless to say, it was much harder than i expected, but its good. because now i know what to expect?!?!?!?!?!?
hooray! i got a card in the mail from home. snailmail is one of life's greatest happinesses. especially when it has pictures of friends in it. and money. and from your mom!
oh, follow up from earlier today. the class i had to scoot over to was for us special students because i dont know my major. and we took personal inventory quizzes. seriously, i now know more about myself than i ever really wanted to know (if thats possible?) and it isn't really even that interesting of stuff. ("why yes, i would like the job of a personal fitness instructor." "NO I dont think i would like slicing a chest open""of course i would enjoy a smoke free work environment.")
but, i guess when you figure out the stupid, obvious stuff, and you set down ground of what you do and do not like in 7+ personal inventories, you can begin to focus on what you really like and want to do.
this is confusing to me, because i came here with a few "leaning towards" majors, but after i took some quizzes it pointed out a few other things that i might be better at. it shouldn't be this confusing, because i already knew i was good at it. HOO-RAH
eventually it will all work out, because i'm all about the floating on.
but now i have GOALS!! and HOMEWORK!!!!! and a roomie with a BOYFRIEND!!!!
you actually DO have to study in college. even if the teacher gives you questions and objectives then you find them in your text and take notes, you will STILL fail unless you review and review and quiz and review some more.
hurrah! i reviewed and reviewed and quizzed and reviewed!
needless to say, it was much harder than i expected, but its good. because now i know what to expect?!?!?!?!?!?
hooray! i got a card in the mail from home. snailmail is one of life's greatest happinesses. especially when it has pictures of friends in it. and money. and from your mom!
oh, follow up from earlier today. the class i had to scoot over to was for us special students because i dont know my major. and we took personal inventory quizzes. seriously, i now know more about myself than i ever really wanted to know (if thats possible?) and it isn't really even that interesting of stuff. ("why yes, i would like the job of a personal fitness instructor." "NO I dont think i would like slicing a chest open""of course i would enjoy a smoke free work environment.")
but, i guess when you figure out the stupid, obvious stuff, and you set down ground of what you do and do not like in 7+ personal inventories, you can begin to focus on what you really like and want to do.
this is confusing to me, because i came here with a few "leaning towards" majors, but after i took some quizzes it pointed out a few other things that i might be better at. it shouldn't be this confusing, because i already knew i was good at it. HOO-RAH
eventually it will all work out, because i'm all about the floating on.
but now i have GOALS!! and HOMEWORK!!!!! and a roomie with a BOYFRIEND!!!!
soooo
apparently college is different from high school. well, duh, but the aspect i'm talking about is that pretty much everyone is as smart or smarter than YOU (well, ME, but i hate pronouns). there are not many whocares, everybody was pretty much involved in the same stuff as me, they got good grades, they "care" about school. they think, they colloquiate, they have finely tuned ideals.
not that there is wrong with any of that, but i'm still adjusting.
another thing, if you really dont feel like doing anything, do laundry. because you can sit at your desk and mess around with your music library, "scan" your textbooks, drink mango juice, throw your rubber band ball around...but HEY! you did a load of laundry that took an hour and fifteen minutes and you only needed to check on it twice but HEY! its DONE! and you've accomplished something!
was minorly FREAKED OUT in my university studies class. we had to guess what our mid-term GPA would be, so i guess about a 3.8 (hey not perfect because of French; also, i am an imaginer but i like to think i'm realistic). then they put up an overhead of past university studies students' mid-term GPA. the highest average was about 2.7. GAH! is college really this hard? or is it just going to take lots and lots of thought and time?!? i have my first "exam" so to speak today...huh.
another thing you need to to to survive in college is go to class, which is what i must do right now. its my...uh, never mind, i have to go
apparently college is different from high school. well, duh, but the aspect i'm talking about is that pretty much everyone is as smart or smarter than YOU (well, ME, but i hate pronouns). there are not many whocares, everybody was pretty much involved in the same stuff as me, they got good grades, they "care" about school. they think, they colloquiate, they have finely tuned ideals.
not that there is wrong with any of that, but i'm still adjusting.
another thing, if you really dont feel like doing anything, do laundry. because you can sit at your desk and mess around with your music library, "scan" your textbooks, drink mango juice, throw your rubber band ball around...but HEY! you did a load of laundry that took an hour and fifteen minutes and you only needed to check on it twice but HEY! its DONE! and you've accomplished something!
was minorly FREAKED OUT in my university studies class. we had to guess what our mid-term GPA would be, so i guess about a 3.8 (hey not perfect because of French; also, i am an imaginer but i like to think i'm realistic). then they put up an overhead of past university studies students' mid-term GPA. the highest average was about 2.7. GAH! is college really this hard? or is it just going to take lots and lots of thought and time?!? i have my first "exam" so to speak today...huh.
another thing you need to to to survive in college is go to class, which is what i must do right now. its my...uh, never mind, i have to go