i'm turning into a freaking insomniac again. gahhhh. hopefully i can fall asleep tonite without any qualms.

watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail tonite. i was actually able to understand all of what they were saying!!

"run away!!!!!"

i check the Brand New site every day for an update on their new album. and yet, all i see is the heading "New Site" and below it "New one coming. Swear."

gahhhhhhhhhh

anyway, i've been thinking lately how it seems like we have these things that we don't like about ourselves, but we don't do anything about them. i'll admit that it takes me awhile to get warmed up in a new place, but i'll blush while i'll do it. but what can i do about it? am i just lazy? or scared? or am i really incapable of improving myself?

and i just so happen to be listening to this song.
and btw.... Straylight Run album = nearly perfect

and i've become content with this life that i lead
where i drink to much and don't believe in much of anything
and i lie to myself
and say
"it's for the best."

"its for the best" straylight run

oh damn.

i just feel like spewing out swear words for no particular reason.
it may be because i sat down in attempt to fix up my seminar paper and nothing came out. i dont really have much else to work on, except read The Time Machine, so i'm going to do that soon.
it also may be because i'm trying to figure out my schedule for next semester. eff off prerequisites.

anyway, things have been happening, and i feel its time for an update.

i've loaded up my winamp playlist of worthy music, and have been listening to that for always. lots of Arcade Fire and Rilo Kiley, which i become more and more attatched to every time i listen. also a lil bit of Onelinedrawing and Carbon Leaf.

there i go again, rambling on about obscure music. but much thanks to ilana for the good stuff. (!)
what can i say, its significant!!

a cutie in my poly sci class commented on my puma shooz today. he said he liked em. it made me smile. and i think it still is.

today is Tuesday, right? no way. this week should be labeled as Procrastination week. i keep putting stuff off. even the days procrastinate on turning from one day to the next. however, michelle and i did make it to the gym today. cardio and iron -- hot!!

i promised myself that i wouldnt take a nap today. i think i've been doing that every day for about a week. however, i'm not as miserable and/or sick as i was last week, so i was able to succeed on that.
however, a nap yesterday was COMPLETELY necessary. falling asleep during two classes does not constitute as "awake."

now to go read about what H.G. Wells says life will be like in 802701.

Let's get together and talk about the modern age
All of our friends were gathered there with their pets just talking shit
about how we're all so upset about the dissapearing ground
As we watch it melt

It's all of the good that won't come out of us
-rilo kiley.

i love this picture. i had it as my desktop for awhile, and now its back.
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Under twenty thousand tons of brick and stone,
She carries all the weight of her own world,
But somewhere deep inside,
Beneath the cartilage and bone,
Beats the battered heart of one little girl alone.
She is sweet, like sugar,
But she is bitter like the broken sugar pot.
Dad says that she could be anything she wants to be,
She only sees what she is not.

Chorus
Disbeliever, underachiever,
Disconcerted with the way things look from here,
Disinclined and disinterested,
Nothing in your world seems clear.
Disbeliever, underachiever,
Don't you shed another tear,
Little Sister, broken heart resistor,
It's not like that over here.

With the Blanket of Security,
And the mighty force of her own will,
Treading water in her pink pajamas,
She is treading water still.
Hopelessly hopeless,
and she is swimming,
further into the sea.
Thinking she's substandard,
While all the while,
She is beautiful to me.

She is strong and silent,
She is blunt and shrewd,
She thinks that nobody loves her,
If she only knew,
How much we all have missed her,
We are praying for you, my little sister.

This is what studying for Western Civ looks like

RIGHT MEG?!?!

hahaha ;-)

Media Player Survey

Total Number of Songs: 2078

Sort by Song Title
First: "Mondestrunken" from Pierrot lunaire (ugly, UGLY song)
Last: Zak and Sara - Ben Folds

Sort by Time
Longest: Full Set (Live) - Gremlins and Butterflies (45:47)
Shortest: Pull in Town - Napoleon Dynamite Soundtrack (0:04)


Sort by Album
First: 11 Days, Never Heard of It; First Complete Album: A Hangover You Don't Deserve, Bowling for Soup
Last: Your Favorite Weapon, Brand New

Top Ten Most Played Songs
1. This is a Call, Thousand Foot Krutch, 47
2. Float On, Modest Mouse, 29

3. The World at Large, Modest Mouse, 27
4. Open Skies, David Crowder Band, 26
5. We Might As Well Be Strangers, Keane, 26
6. Thrive, Newsboys, 26
7. Breathe (2AM), Anna Nalick, 25
8. Life Turned Upside Down, Badly Drawn Boy, 25
9. Thank You for Hearing Me, David Crowder Band, 25
10. Here I am to Worship, Jeremy Camp, 25


Find "sex" - how many songs show up? 0
Find "death" - how many songs show up? 26
Find "love" - how many songs show up? 81

happy birthday to the blog.

i'm back. once again i've reached a conclusive point in my life.

-yeah, regina spektor does have a lot of fun with her music. i think it would be amazing to see her live and experience all of her musical variances. and who else would sing about how she can't give her boyfriend a steak for his black eye because shes a vegetarian so it'll be a pizza pie, or how funny it would be if you cut your own hair
-im glad i went home
-the guy on the weather channel at 3:30 in the morning SUCKS. avoid at all costs.
-i'm pretty sure everything's going to be ok.

the pictures below are from my spring break, because in rochester minnesota we got 20 inches of snow.

anyway, this will come as no surprise, but i listened to lots of music over spring break. one evening i was listening to relient k, and i think this was inpsired by the listening to of "High of 75" on my headphones while i shoveled...insert spark of irony here...and i was just thinking of how happy the world could be if they were there listening to that song.

ummmmmm enough of that sappiness. lets focus on how i was listening to my headphones while i was shoveling and the dumb headphones kept falling out of my ears, so every five minutes i had to stop and put them back. sick of that, i got bright pink earmuffs and put them over my ears and put my hood over that. hooyah for pink earmuffs!
im thinking this means i'm comfortable with myself. who knows.

anyway, from "high of 75..."

its funny how you find you enjoy you're alive
when you're happy to be alive

snow piles by the driveway
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hiiii

took full advantage of having a tub at home tonite. ahhh...

also did some serious music listening. put cd's in my stereo and plugged my headphones in, and just kinda sat there.

but right now i'm streaming Regina Spektor's Soviet Kitsch from her website. i like how she plays with her music. definitely not like anything i've ever heard before.

anyway, thru all the lines of music that have gone thru my head tonite, this is the best and most relevant i've come up with.

we're moving forward
but holding ourselves back
-straylight run (yet again)

i was debating whether to or not. well, here i am, so i guess i am a pretty persuasive person.

i'm on screaming fast internet connection, and i'm at home. its new. how cool is that?!

but i'm not on my computer. sob.

oh well. at home is nice. i got to see my new baby cousin today. which was exciting :-)

with a little bit of my birthday money, i kind of want to buy a cd. that remains to be seen what it will be. i'm bouncing around a few ideas...
-the shins
-yellowsecond
-onelinedrawing
-anberlin

if you're wondering what onelinedrawing is, its a former band by gratitude lead singer, jonah matranga. i like it :-)
its sweet, and mellow, and interesting. a guy pouring his heart out, without seeming sappy.

awww

ang and i exchanged iPods on the way home tonite and i went through some of my music thats somehow on her playlist and not mine. its just old. oh well. anyways, found some pete yorn and loudermilk.
still not sure if pete yorn is quality music or not. i just kind of like his deep, rusky voice (is rusky a word?) and the fun guitar.

and loudermilk. not sure if they are considered good, but i liked em, in a weird, twisted sort of way. odd voices and creepy feelings aside, they were very poetic.


gonna shut up about that one now.

anyways, gonna listen to a little bit more of my new friend Jonah Matranga! then sleep. jeez, coming home is tiring...

latah!

hi.

welcome to march 8th. today, the Gratitude CD is officially released. i recommend it.

also, Yellow Second has a new CD out today.

i may check that out. as they're gonna be at SONSHINE.

coming down from the high that was my birthday, and the feelings of superficiality that went with it. but that's ok. i still have my real flowers sitting on my desk that smell so pretty. see below.

so, as standard on most Tuesdays and Thursdays, i have my songs for the day that won't leave my head. two today. which are Guster's "Two Points for Honesty" and Dynamite Hack's "Mellow Anyway."

ALSO, straylight run, minus the bear, and gratitude ALL in concert on April 8th in Chicago. that would be ONE HOT SHOW. seriously, could they get a better show?

ok, you beat me...sonshine FO SHIZ.

i've been studying lately for my geology test, and studying some more. its a good thing i have a good professor. but the studying...it keeps happening...and happening...of course, this is a good thing, but its just taking me awhile.

ahemm....

granitic igneous rocks have a majority of quartz components. they erode to arkose gravel or arkose sand. through the lithification process of cementation, it becomes arkose conglomorate or arkose sandstone, depending on how fine the sediment is.

"JARGON!" -- something strongbad would say while narrating a TGS episode. AIIIIGHHHT!!!

ok, getting it out of my head and into yours. ask me for the song if you so choose.

PART OF "Two Points for Honesty"
I want to be where I've never been before
I want to be there and then I'd understand
Know I'm right and do it right, could I get to be like that
I'll know what I don't know with nothin more to gain
Will I get better or stay the same
I find I always move to slowly
Can't lift a finger, can't change my mind
I never knew till someone told me that...
If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time
You've dreamed a thousand dreams, none seem to stick in your mind
Two points for honesty

Guster!

birthday flowers!!
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hooray!

got actual living real Straylight Run for my birthday. its enhanced and has a labelmates cd too. listening to it now. gorgeous, gorgeous stuff.

oh, right, my birthday yesterday. was lots of fun. 55 degree weather. lemmings. malts. commedia. skipping class. birthday messages by mail, by facebook, by IM.

great day.

i dont know how dumb this is, but i learned some interesting stuff in poly sci on thursday. allow me to elaborate:
-bs'ing works! sometimes.
-Finish this sentence, from a bar exam, answer below:In MA, an inheritance requires
A)a will and three witnesses
B)a will and three witnesses
C)a will and three witnesses
D)a will and three witnesses.
-Thomas Jefferson wasn't only the first person in America to eat a tomato, but also America's first stoner.

hahaha! the answer to the question is D, because there's a period at the end of the sentence. don't worry, i'm not ready to become a lawyer either.

so! there was a line in the bathroom to take showers this morning! on a saturday!! i cant really figure it out either. however, i'm breaking my noon rule because i'm still in my pajamas and its past noon. i'll probly go for a run, but i dont know when, so thats why.

i think i need to not drink lightly caffinated stuff before i go to bed. if i have a cup of tea, or in this case a chocolate malt, within hours of going to bed, i have really strange, lifelike dreams. ugh...last night was almost tiring.

well, off to do some stuff. hopefully my running partner wakes up within the next half hour.

soaking in the day.

please pray for my friend Erin. she's in the hospital with a severe case of pneumonia. one of her lungs has collapsed and she stopped breathing at one point.

difficult times for so many other people as well.

i'm tired. going to bed. not getting caught up with dumb facebook again.

meg sent me the Straylight Run album:

"The Perfect Ending"

Take in the context,
It's not a bad thing,
But when you start to pick it apart,
And you get so depressed,
It's that sort of thing,
That makes you think too much,
It's that sort of thing,
Makes you lose your objectivity,

So if you made it,
Just be glad that you did and stay there,
If you ever feel loved or needed,
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones,
And if it's over,
Just remember what I told you,
It was bound to happen so just...
Keep moving on,
There's no perfect endings,

You peeled back the layers
And get down to the inside,
But sometimes you loose sight,
Of what it was you were trying to find,
And it's that sort of thing,
That makes you think too much,
It's that sort of thing,
Makes you lose your objectivity

So if you made it,
Just be glad that you did and stay there,
If you ever feel loved or needed,
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones,
And if it's over,
Just remember what I told you,
It was bound to happen so just...
Keep moving on,
There's no perfect endings,
No perfect endings.

im becoming an awful blogger. AND you're probably sick of seeing those huge words from the last post. i just really wanted you to see them.

my roomate is asleep. and i'm still here. this has been happening more and more lately. also in correlating fashion is the later times i am getting up in the morning.

in Teaching in American Society this morning, i was so bored and cold from the air that blows down that makes my hair move in top-model-fashion that i got out my cell phone and started messing around with doodler. then i discovered that the pictures that i draw i can set as my wallpaper. woo for that!

i also found two numbers in the Outgoing Calls log that i didnt recognize. hmmmmmmmm. i also called someone, and they called me back the second i left the room. i also expected another call that i didnt get. pffsh, cell phones.

hey look at that, its the first day of march. whoa. and it snowed today. or yesterday. this always happens, people, dont freak out.
also, i can add yet another month archives link to the right of the page. not only is my birthday this month, but so is my blog's!

FEBRUARY 29TH FEBRUARY 30TH FEBRUARY 31ST FEBRUARY 32ND

thank you for bearing with me in my spur of oddity.

did you know that february 28th was Bachelor's Day?

whatever.

tonite i was designated as an alcoholic for twenty minutes, and i had too much to drink. too much to drink was two small cups of sprite-knockoff.
wow, now i feel experienced.

at observation today the assistant principal observed the class as well. huh. i shook her hand (SUCK UP!)

gotta go to bed now. that whole roomate alarm clock correlation thing.

we're glad for what we've got
done with what we've lost
our whole lives laid out
right in front of us

-straylight run