went to the Guster/Carbon Leaf show last night. It was awesome! I couldn't believe how good Carbon Leaf sounded live, and how engaging Guster was.

Guster


Carbon Leaf


dont read mike's concert experience, which ocurred two nights beforehand. mine pales in comparison.

hahahahahaha, just kidding

but i still had a great time!!!

i really need to get back to my homework. but i really needed the break.

Your Linguistic Profile:

75% General American English

20% Upper Midwestern

5% Midwestern

0% Dixie

0% Yankee

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

yah, you betcha.

interesting day. and i feel like its wednesday. and yesterday felt like thursday.

AAHHH

a girl down the hall bought an Ab-Lounge. yeah, those are those bed-like contraptions on the commercials on TV that you lay down on and move up and down flexing your abs, and it works because the commercials show men in white coats taking notes from readings from the sticky electronic dots on a woman's abs.
and this is no hearsay. i SAW her assembling it.

where you put one of those things at the end of the school year in your dorm room? i dont know.

should i do more homework? yes. am i tired? yes. will i do more homework? we shall see.

funny but true. i've been waking up before my alarm all week. huh?

this one goes out to all y'alls who find meaning in it, and those who maybe don't.

space robot five
is he alive?
so very alone
so far from home

for those who were betting on my poly sci test score....

I got at 93! Bringing my grade up to an A at barely-there 90.3%. BUT HEY!

today is just a good day. good weather, good classes, good registration, good music, good people.

ok, i heard Kaiser Chiefs rocked but not this hard. and i bought an EXCLUSIVE brand new White Stripes song from iTunes.

and i'm listening to Arcade Fire. all of this constitutes the "good music" part.

i'm out--

listening to: "Amie" damien rice

i canNOT stop listening to this song.

its " we're not expecting anything to happen. i'm not an incredible person, either are you. we're both just ordinary people. but you mean so much to me. "

this is just another example of how i cant stop listening to some songs. i will listen to a song, then i will have to listen to it over, and over, and over.

past examples:
"No Cars Go" arcade fire
"We Looked Like Giants" death cab for cutie
"A Lack of Color" death cab for cutie

and now...

"Amie" damien rice

repeat. repeat. repeat. repeat. repeat. repeat.

i just DON'T do that. i just DON'T.

i realized tonite i haven't cried for a long time.

i think this is a good thing. but at the same time, i just haven't felt very real.

i try to find lyrics that apply to how i feel. i'm not finding anything. maybe i'm not supposed to. maybe i need to find what i'm thinking on my own.

and yet i keep listening to "amie." hoping it will soften me up?

last nite before my friends i told about stuff that has happened in my life. somethings that devastated me, were so hard, changed me, impacted me. and there as i sat, i relayed it more as history. it happened, now its over. i was changed and affected, and so here i sit, the way that i am. that's it.

huh

a couple things i've been thinking about:
isn't it funny how the people that you'll meet in your life seem to come at the right time? the ones that will really stick with you. would they have done that in the places that you and they were before? were you ready to meet each other before this point?

i'm sure its different for everyone. but i also think we get so caught up in what we need at a moment. we think we know what we want, and we know we want it now. (didja catch that?)

i think God's well aware of that. and the people we need, eventually we'll find. and it will be better than you thought it would be.

another thing. be aware of the mistakes you know you are making.


Nothing unusual, nothing strange
Close to nothing at all
The same old scenario, the same old rain
And there's no explosions here
Then something unusual, something strange
Comes from nothing at all

holy crap.

SEVENTEEN days of class left.

left to do:
Political Science Test
Western Civ Test
ETE 107 Test
ETE 107 Large Group Project
2000 word Civ Essay
Revamp still-not-finished Seminar Paper
Western Civ Panel

oh shit. thats more than i thought.

while i was typing that, i realize i do that at the end of every year, like in high school, and then i stare at it and freak out about how much i have to do.

but, right now, i'm looking at it, and saying "shit, thats more than i thought." with that nagging voice in my head thats telling me "oh, becky, you should be getting on that."

anyways. had interesting talk with megan today. not really sure what i'm going to do about that issue. i think i need a couple more days of a break. then i'll keep working on it. with an unknown goal. but i'll keep going. to wherever that is.

i have a political science test tomorrow. anyone want to bet how i'll do on it? heres some info:
test 1:100
test 2:78
notes taken: yes, extensive
day started taking notes: April 10
general comprehension of the topic: relatively good; i remember stuff from senior year government class


if it sounds like i haven't been myself lately, i agree with you. not sure why i am appearing like that, maybe its true.

but stuff has happened, stuff is happening.

but i must say....

I love my friends.

i went to bed, but crying and breaking glass from outside has kept me up.

i dont get it. i was falling over asleep at 9.

anyway, thought i'd better catch up on my posting.

dont know why but lately i've just been feeling sick. i get up in the morning and can barely stomcah my breakfast. i dont really feel like doing much. maybe i just need to sleep for twelve straight hours.

woooo looks like i'm getting a good start on it now.

jeez its hot. and i may have a slight sunburn from sitting outside for four hours today. but i dont care, it was fun!

my sister came this weekend. that was fun :-)

and i guess thats all the profoundness i can come up with at quarter to two in the morning. maybe i'll clean up.

finally, i listened to Your Favorite Weapon a lot tonite. i just lately have had a difficult time deciding what to listen to for my mood. i guess Brand New does the trick.

a couple songs to leave you with tonite.

He tells everyone a story,
because he feels his life is boring,
and he fights so you won't ignore him,
because that's his biggest fear, and he cries,
but you'll rarely see him do it.
He loves, but he's scared to use it.
So he hides behind the music,
cause he likes it that way--tfk

And we just want sleep.
But this night is hell.
I'm sick and sunk and I blame myself
because I make things hard
and you're just trying to help.
I got no gas. (No Gas)
I'm winding out my gears.
This is one more day on the verge of tears.
And now my head hurts. ( Head hurts)
And my health is a joke.
Now I got to stop because the headphones broke-bn

Cause it's too important
To stay the way it's been-dcfc

so, its been almost a week.

i can live with that.

but it's been a really interesting week.

today was interesting in and of itself. i have a tentative plan for the next three years. i lost and found my Teaching in American Society book/study guide. i finally finished my seminar paper for civ. i took a nap.

but maybe its the lack of sleep, or the extensive amounts of homework that is not getting done. or whatever else.

i just feel like i'm doing something wrong.



and all these lines fall short of what i had in mind
a failed attempt to capsulize a feeling
so i just try and fail and try and try again
someday i swear i'm going to get it
because i'm convinced that giving in is the worst thing there is

-straylight run "mistakes we knew we were making"