i seem to remember talking about The Shins...

i feel like writing. not sure about what, so we'll see how this goes.

today was an interesting day, and in today, i mean yesterday, because twenty minutes ago it was yesterday. or rather, Sunday.

during the day i thought about the way that i think. sounds strange, doesn't it? but i've discovered about myself that i am freakishly self-aware. maybe this is a more mature way of looking at my "need to control everything," but its just that, a more mature way of thinking of it. i like to stop and figure stuff out for myself. then bounce it off other people. but gaahhhh i feel like it has to make sense to me first.

let me try this again. i think just internally i'm confused. nothing serious, i just need to figure out some sort of philosophy i can call my own that is for the most part consistent. but hopefully i don't get stuck on it, or get narrow minded, not allowing myself to grow.

now that i've successfully confused you...

{insert any switchfoot lyrics here}

it's like breathing!

the other day i was thinking how wonderful it was that i wasn't sick. and now i am. fooey.

brand new is coming out with a new website! i still check back everyday! they're working on it! i'll be patient if its gonna be totally awesome!

i bought a pair of awesome jeans on sale today for $19.99. i handed the guy a $20 bill. this is minnesota. there's no sales tax on clothes.

hoo-ah!

i'll probly go to bed now. yeah, its 10pm. i havent done that...forever? boo on being sick and restless nights.

but hey, no-sales-tax-jeans-on-sale make it all OK.

i hate that feeling that i get when i'm watching tv or doing something and something happens and i start thinking about stuff that i've posted and realize that what i've posted is quite possibly the dumbest and sappiest thing i've ever written.

yo.

so, it has been awhile since i last posted, over a week, i believe.

and i went back, and thought to myself, this would be the ultimate time to stop this blog.

and why not...i wasn't feeling inspired or incredibly verbose, my internet crapped out every ten minutes, and all i seemed to be doing was indie music research, which the general population is not particularly interested in anyway. so why am i here?

like usual, i dont know.

what i do know is that my room is still dirty, and not in that dirt and grime sense, but that "unmoved in." june first is my mom's deadline for me to get my private belongings out of the public hallway just outside my room. haha, i dont think she thinks i can do it.

but, once again, i'll do something unexpected. just to assure you that i'm not becoming sane.

the army reserve called me yesterday. the representative was a nice guy. i support the army. no, i dont think i would join the army reserve. i dont think its for me. why?

because that whole stupid anti-authority/anti-conformity thing i have.

but i actually said, "uh, i have to go."

and go figure, i'm going to be the authority someday! bahaha

on a completely different note. i think i just realized something.

"you and me" by lifehouse. i've been listening to it a lot. people are sick of it because of radio or various, but i still turn it up. and now its on my computer, perhaps on repeat. its so different than the music i've spent listening/discovering/judging until 2 in the morning.
and i put switchfoot on in the car. and "on fire" still makes me want to cry everytime i hear it.

yeah, there's a difference. and it makes the world ok. when i listen to it, i dont have to know the answer to Why. i dont have to worry about different views, different tastes, who's right or wrong. i just know that to me, it's beautiful.

talk about a week of beginnings and endings.

three down. one to go. and the one thats left...death.

i must say this finals time has been one of the best times i've had at college, compared to last semester's finals week, which was hell.

this morning i listened to our campus radio station for my alarm (WHY didn't i find this earlier???) and heard Interpol and Franz Ferdinand, and started thinking too much about them, which is maybe why i didn't get up until 8:35ish. that's ok, all i had this morning was to turn in a take home final. it took casey and i longer to walk there and back then the time we spent in the building. oh well, at least its OVAH.

but anyways, now i'm awake, and don't really want to pick up studying poly sci again. but i dont want to pack either. i suppose i could eat leftover pizza. because we have to defrost our refridgerator soon enough.

anyways, in the past 12 hours i've been listening to music i kind of forgot i have. murder by death, Good News For People Who Loves Bad News, "Maps," "Save Me." i really forgot how much i love the beautiful song that is "maps." i want to see the video again. and the MTV video awards performance. AHHH so good, so good!

thats all i got --

so i dutifully check the Brand New web site every day, sometimes more than once a day. and nothing is ever new. no fresh news. nuthin.

maybe it will come on that proverbial "worst day ever."

but i know that the new Switchfoot album is coming in august. but brand new...i'd enjoy so very much something besides "soon" or "this summer." i'm losing the patience i'm known for.

i also want to know how things got to "disaster" state. why now, why why why now??

dammit.

050505

this is a shallow post.

i think.

i have yet to finish my roots paper. and i really need to get going on it. i'm not worried, i just have to finish it.

i will be home in exactly 7 days, maybe even to the minute. wow.

i think i'll be ready. i think.

ah, but the question is, will my stuff be?

i shaved my legs this morning, and lemme be honest with you, i suck at shaving my legs. i need like a microscope and soap that doesn't run so i can be sure that i get every spot. which never happens. you'd think that after about six years of regularly doing it i would have some degree of skill in it. regardless, i'll have my bathtub back soon. which helps.

speaking in cosmotology terms, i'd like you to take a look at the following picture, an ad found at weather.com's local page for Peoria IL.


ew.
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ok, so the ad is for an alternative to Botox. why, then, is the picture of the lips exceedingly EXCEEDINGLY large? is that what botox does to your lips? (i thought that was collagen!!) HOW SEXY.

yet another reason why you should avoid plastic surgery.

i've been listening to Barenaked Ladies lately, and i never knew i could enjoy their music as much as i do. maybe the surprise factor is part of it, but its just fun music and mixtape friendly as well.

i'm doing laundry for (hopefully) the last time right now. then i will proceed to go get Bosco sticks for lunch. yum!
then back to thuh paper.

oh hey, props to Ilana for her A in Accounting!

i've been doing some thinking. and i've been lagging behind on posts.

i read a quote the other day that went like this:
"It is only in the giving of oneself that we truly live."
--Ethel Percy Adams

yes, selfish people are miserable.

i'm in an emo mood.

i'm in a false security mode. what am i forgetting?

i think its really interesting when you find out stuff about people that you didn't know.

hmmm...

happy may!

honestly, this was going to be a good post.

*flush*