oh wow...i think i set a record.

usually i'm good about posting within a week, but this is disasterous. i mean, i nearly forgot my Blogger sign in name.

anyway, my life has been relatively eventful, (but apparently not exciting enough to write about?). I went on a retreat last weekend, which was a good time to grow and get to know other people. I definitely feel like I am gaining a good base of friends with the cru group. and yesterday we built a shack in our school's shack-a-thon, and that was a lot of fun. people actually slept in it. i helped build it, and there were momentous occasions where a male allowed me to use the duck (or is it duct? i dont think we ever came to a consensus) tape. *sounds of awhwhwhhwhw* needless to say i felt very useful at certain times. and i don't mean to say that the boys hogged the job, or were being mean about it - they asked for my help. well except maybe one, but he's a self proclaimed chauvinist. whatever, in all of the fun i kind of forgot it was the middle of the week, but thats ok because wednesdays suck.

its also been a week of procrastination, aside from the blog, as i have procrastinated on essentially every assignment for every class. i have a health midterm tomorrow...ick. theres probably seventy vocabulary words to know, ten will be on the test, and no word bank. and that's only one part of the test.

i guess I should be focusing on how this is a MIDTERM.

on a completely unrelated note, sometimes happiness is not having things figured out.

well then. that was the weekend.

i spent it with my mom, which was really very lovely. plenty of good food and girlie movies. :-)

however my vacation of a weekend has me feeling disconnected from this thing called school. now i have to go to class tomorrow morning!

i guess that means i should get some sleep. if i can fall asleep. lately i've been distracted....

ooh boy. i got the new switchfoot cd over the weekend and its very very nice. it is kind of odd to have inexperienced switchfoot songs, and by that i mean that i havent heard the song and then lived and then found myself in that situation and applied it and cried and whatever. a bunch of good stuff....

am i weird when i say i hear traces of newer Relient K?

i sure hope kelli had a good 21st birthday!

right-o. time for bed.

HA! about the fire drill. 7:30 wednesday morning and a couple hundred college students outside all in their pajamas.

just wanted to acknowledge the revamped Coordinate Brain to Mouth. it kind of brings together Whackspoetic and CBTM, don't you think?

anyways, I'm going to take a nap. the time has FINALLY arrived.

i realize yesterday was a mopey post, and i got several sympathies, that for which i am grateful.

after a slight sleeping-in this morning, self pep talk, and a midol, i realized things weren't so bad.

i feel like the homework is just not going to end. of course it will, but seriously, this is the second 2am night in a row. but i have been impressed with myself how focused i have been in doing my homework. i can sit down, say "do this" and then do it. with a break or two, but it still gets done.

except i wish i knew how to "develop a parent letter that describes best practice and explains how parents can expect to see best practice principles applied in their children's classroom." i have until three-ish this afternoon to figure it out. but i did finish my health project (early too!) and my philosophy of education, which i am pleased with. next concern is vocab quiz, but maybe it should be psych test on thursday. talk about a load of information.

i updated my iTunes, and, as the Mac people promised, it is much more "streamlined-looking." ooh how futuristic sounding. this is like huge because it hasnt happened that the actual window is modified. and i have been into the iTunes shuffle, and it plays some good songs. but maybe because thats i skip the songs i dont want to hear.

i've become particularly annoying when it comes to predicting the fire drill to my friends. i'm surprised they haven't conked me on the head yet.

today in Diversity class we talked about how White Anglo-Saxon Protestants, the dominant culture, are "privileged" and they don't even know it. they don't know it because they just dont think about themselves that way, because they can't see themselves from another point of view. i must admit i am mostly in that mold, but what can i do about it? i hate, and i don't hate, looking like i'm ignorant. yeah it happens. it doesn't make me look very good. it makes people who know better than i do to make judgements about me that i wish weren't true.
then i catch mtv's sweet sixteen show and just kind of...hmmm...

oh well. i will just keep working on making myself better.

mrahaha i got a kick out of this quote from our psychology in-class notes last wednesday.
"the hypothalamus is the master gland and regulates the four 'F's: feeding, fighting, fleeing, and reproduction."

on THAT note of inappropriateness, i'd like to give a shout out to my sister who is 13 today!

hrmph. as optimistic as i tried to be today, it didnt really seem to work.

it can only get better, right?

i think...God is trying to remind me that its not up to me. as much as i want to think that i am capable of stuff. i don't know.

i'm probably thinking too much. on the flip side, ilana sent me "first day of my life" by bright eyes. heart.

"its magic, she says to me"

lately i've been listening a lot to mae, just because. gently listening and hearing the words unwrap around the meanings, letting them free and allowing me to make sense of them. and i nod my head in understanding...

physically i am getting better, my nose isn't quite as congested, i cough sometimes, and i'm working out my abdomen with the muscles used in coughing. on a related note, i reached that point that i sometimes reach when i've been outside, and just generally around. the ick point. i havent done much today but go to class, but i still feel gross. i have to wait awhile to take a shower. i already pulled my hair back. i wouldn't be the only one with this problem would i?

today in psychology i learned all about Neuropsychology, by a real live Neuropsychologist. i was very confused. and i was basically just scribbling down words like "norepinephrine," "dendrite," and "sympathetic nervous system." some of the words sound familiar. i think the difficulty in this is that its hard to really know how is it that when i touch something i can tell how warm it is, the texture, what else it feels like, and remember what it feels like, just by laying my finger on it. its all powered by electricity and those weird words, but that still doesn't answer how...
another baffling thing i have been learning about is getting an entire human being out of one cell within nine months.

wow.

its kind of funny how whatever you expect to happen totally doesn't. and then when you aren't expecting it, there it goes and catches you off guard.

i'm trying to just let it happen.